You gon Learn today!

It’s funny because the new catch phrase is “All things are working for my good”..when I hear that I wonder if the people who are in the middle of a storm can understand that? 
I did not get it when I did something so out if my character with devastating results. One day in the middle of the night my inner woman said get up, look at the phone bill..I was stunned, that’s not me. I was watching my marriage melt down at the time and I didn’t know why, everything I knew and believed was being shaken. All of a sudden my dude wasn’t interested in me, short conversations, easily irritated, no more silly moments of looking at each other and cracking up, suddenly there was a stranger in my house. So I got up, I looked at the phone bill that had 12,345,678,901 numbers on it and my inner woman said That One! I dialed and had no idea what to say when SHE answered wide awake in the middle of the night. I stumbled over my words with my heart beating in my chest so hard I thought I was having a heart attack. In my heart of hearts I knew I was wrong and I knew I was right, I asked ” Do you know him?” She didn’t hesitate or waver she said YES, and we are in love! I died a little, well a lot actually but the entire world stopped on its axis and the moon ceased it’s movement because I was shook. 

Ok I’m going to pause for dramatic affect and say, thank God for mothers! Yes, thank God. 

I said politely back to the woman, ok, thank you. She said, can you hold? I said sure. She clicked back over and said, he is on the other line, is there anything I should tell him? Well, if you don’t know me, I was polite and I said, can you ask him to bring me my car, I noticed he is driving it. She was stunned, she said is that it. I said yes and thank you so much. I hung up the phone, pulled on my sweats and got the ax out of the closet. I am not lying or making this up. My mother was entering the house as I was putting on my shoes, she took one look at me and said “baby, what’s wrong?” I should tell you my mom was not Betty Crocker or Martha Stewart or none of those kinds of moms, she was a GANGSTER, she said who are we killing? She was down until I told her it was her son in law. My mother looked at me and said, you called some woman’s house, I began to explain that the spirit woke me up, and gave me the right number, I had to call. She said “and you will believe some B$&$$ before you believe your man?” I told you, she was no joke. I’m standing in the hallway cussing and crying and ready to do battle with his car which was his pride and joy then my mom says “sit your A-S-S down, you don’t ever let someone tell you something about your man, what is her motive to tell you the truth! I was not listening to that mess I wanted something or someone to hurt as much as I was. Well, home training showed up, we get used to listening and obeying our moms so I waited impatiently until he got home to ask the question. 

Well, things got real bad in my life after that night, I entered into the darkest period of my life. My marriage spiraled out of control, my child lost her foundation and I was left with nothing. I moved back to Flint and things went from bad to worse to worser still. And I didn’t know God but I am forever thankful that he knew me.

Here is the working it out for my good part, you knew I would tell you. 

“Thou shalt have no other gods before me.”‭‭Exodus‬ ‭20:3‬ ‭KJV‬‬

During this time in my life I knew God, I loved him and I trusted him a lot, he was there as I suffered through my youth, I know that because when I was hiding in closets listening to my mother being beaten I called to him and he protected me. When I was hungry and scared he sent me to the homes of my friends and thier mothers fed me and loved on me, I could go on and on but you get the picture. I had no relationship with God. I had put all my trust, all my faith into this boy when I was 15. He looked like he had the kind of life I yearned for. A strong grandmother who was loving and kind, a grandfather who looked at me like I was a child and treated me like a princess. He loved me, he got me, I was able to be open, vulnerable and crazy and it was ok. I loved him like no other, we were tight, Bonnie and Clyde tight. We had weathered some storms, we had lived through having a child that lived 8 months in hospitals before she died, we had weathered the storms my mom brought into our home, we had weathered raising children that were not ours,  we were tight. Then we weren’t and I was lost. But God tho! During this difficult time women poured into me about God and the love of Jesus, I heard them but I didn’t get it. We were in this howling storm for years of bad decisions,  creating debt to ease the pain, fighting, making up, moving in and out. It was an awful mess but God. During this time I was invited to Ebenezer Ministries by my brother of the heart Vincent Evans. Jesus found me broken down and beat up on a pew on Center rd. He whispered to me to give in and accept him officially and my life would be changed. Well I gave in and gave up and then Jesus went to work. He had his work cut out too, I was a mess. But he never gave up on me, he is still keeping me. 

One day I looked back on the most painful time of my life and it didn’t hurt anymore. I saw a Phoenix rising out of the ashes of my life. I was reminded that these things happened for me to break away from Michael my savior and to allow us to grow up and put our relationship in the right order. God first, Michael could not save me or heal me or even love me, because I had not learned to love myself. Now Michael gets to be my husband. He no longer has the pressure of trying to live up to a young girls fantasy of him saving me from the world. He had to be so much to me before he ever had a chance to see who he was.   But God, this process was painful, it was horrible but it was necessary. And now years and years later, I understand it. 

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:28‬ ‭KJV‬‬



Here is an open letter to God’s daughters. I will take great Liberty with the Word of God but only  so we will understand how the Word applies to us. 
In my head I can hear the Lord calling out to me when I am scared, when I am lonely, when I get tired:

Come to me daughter, I know you are weary and burdened, but I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. (Matthew‬ ‭11:28-30‬ ‭)

Daughter I will heal your broken heart and bandages your wounds. I counts the stars and knows each of you by name. I am the  Lord, I am great and powerful. There is no limit to what I know. (Psalms‬ ‭147:3-5‬ ‭ERV‬‬)

“For I created your inmost being; I knit you together in your mother’s womb. I praise you because You are fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”(Psalm‬ ‭139:13-14‬ ‭NIV‬‬)

“And because you belong to Christ Jesus, God’s peace will stand guard over all your thoughts and feelings. His peace can do this far better than our human minds.”(Philippians‬ ‭4:7‬ ‭ERV‬‬)

“It is through him that we are able to live, to do what we do, and to be who we are. As your own poets have said, ‘We all come from him.’”(Acts‬ ‭17:28‬ ‭ERV‬‬)

Daughter, you are blessed when you trust in me, when your confidence is in me.‭‭(Jeremiah‬ ‭17:7‬ ‭NIV‬‬)

When you trust in me you will be happy forever. I protect and strengthen those who love my name. I am the Lord, I bless good people, I will surround you with love, like a large shield that protects you. (Psalms‬ ‭5:11-12‬ ‭ERV‬‬)
Daughter, Don’t worry and say, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ That’s what those people who don’t know ME are always thinking about. Don’t worry, because your Father in heaven knows that you need all these things.(Matthew‬ ‭6:31-32‬ ‭ERV‬)

“So don’t worry about tomorrow. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Tomorrow will have its own worries.”

‭‭(Matthew‬ ‭6:34‬ ‭ERV‬‬)

I will use my glorious riches to give you everything you need. I will do this through Christ Jesus.” (Philippians‬ ‭4:19‬ ‭ERV‬)

If you are young, or old, I have never left good people with no one to help them; I have never seen their children begging for food.” (Psalms‬ ‭37:25‬ ‭ERV‬‬)

Never forget this:

“Yes, I am sure that nothing can separate us from God’s love—not death, life, angels, or ruling spirits. I am sure that nothing now, nothing in the future, no powers, nothing above us or nothing below us—nothing in the whole created world—will ever be able to separate us from the love God has shown us in Christ Jesus our Lord.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:38-39‬ ‭

When God wakes you up in the middle of the night with a post. 

A woman made it to heaven, stooped over from age, her skin was wrinkled and full of age spots yet her eyes were full of joy. The woman was met by an Angel, the angel was young and beautiful, full of life, singing songs of praise. She greeted the woman by name and and hugged her close. The old lady looked at the young angel and said “Do I know you? Why am I naked? Where are you taking me? The angel continued on the path, holding tightly to the woman’s and and singing softly. As they rounded a corner there stood a giant mirror, the Angel looked to the woman and asked her if she wanted to look back over her life so that she would be able to answer any questions that God had for her? The old lady looked at the young Angel and said “No, I remember everything I’ve ever done wrong, and I’ll answer to God.” The young lady tugged on her hand again and asked softly, are you sure, is there not one thing you need to remember? The old lady answered swiftly, “NO, I know who I am and what I’ve done and when I meet my maker I’ll answer to him.” The Angel sat down near the old lady’s feet and hung her head weeping softly. The old lady looked down at her and said”why are you weeping young lady? The Angel looked at her with eyes full of tears, shoulders slumped, and said, “How can you answer to God for your life if you don’t even remember me?” The old lady looked down at the young Angel, she gazed into her eyes and searched for answers. She looked closely at her and asked, “how do I know you?” The Angel stood up and gently turned the old lady to the mirror, she instructed her to look closely and reminded her not to turn away. The mirror began to appear as if it were smoky, with swirling grey circles and light,  and then it stopped. When the swirling stopped the old ladies life began to play. She saw herself enter the world as a baby, she saw her parents laughing and proud, then she saw a young lady who felt very familiar to her begin to walk along side her throughout life, the young lady would wipe her tears when she cried, hold her hand and jump for joy with her when she was glad, the young lady rocked her children when they cried, she sang songs to her when she was down and she comforted her when she was low. This woman sat with her through every tear  and every prayer. She saw the young lady move obstacles from her path, turn people away from her door.  The old lady looked from the mirror to the Angel and said “Who are you?” “How is it you are present in all my memories?” The Angel looked at her and said gently, “I am your guardian Angel, I was assigned to you at birth, we have always had a connection, I was always with you, you belong to me”! 

“Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?”‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭1:14‬ ‭NIV‬‬ is where you count it all joy, that no matter what you are going through, God has made provision for you. Don’t give up, it truly is taken care of. You don’t have to figure it out, you don’t have to compromise your dignity, God has you. You do have a task in this, keep the faith, don’t give up, don’t stop believing. 

“Just as I was with Moses, I will be with you. No one will be able to stop you all your life. I will not abandon you. I will never leave you.”‭‭Joshua‬ ‭1:5‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Let me encourage you

You ever see the Word of God and get excited? You see where he reminds you that he is who he said he is? He sent message after message to remind us that he loves us, cares for us and makes plans for our lives. As the song goes, 
Let me encourage you, let me speak to life to you, you can depend on me to pray for you, you can depend on God to see you through. 

5 “Before I made you in your mother’s womb, I knew you. Before you were born, I chose you for a special work. I chose you to be a prophet to the nations.” (‭Jeremiah‬ ‭1‬:‭5‬ ERV)

17 Samuel said, “In the past you didn’t think that you were important, but the Lord chose you to be the king. So you became the leader of the tribes of Israel. (‭1 Samuel‬ ‭15‬:‭17‬ ERV)

7 And because you belong to Christ Jesus, God’s peace will stand guard over all your thoughts and feelings. His peace can do this far better than our human minds. (‭Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭7‬ ERV)

“But let those who trust in you be happy forever. Protect and strengthen those who love your name.”‭‭Psalms‬ ‭5:11‬ ‭ERV‬‬

4 I trust God, so I am not afraid of what people can do to me! I praise God for his promise to me. (‭Psalms‬ ‭56‬:‭4‬ ERV)

5 Just as I was with Moses, I will be with you. No one will be able to stop you all your life. I will not abandon you. I will never leave you. (‭Joshua‬ ‭1‬:‭5‬ ERV)

10 Don’t worry—I am with you. Don’t be afraid—I am your God. I will make you strong and help you. I will support you with my right hand that brings victory.

13 I am the Lord your God, who holds your right hand. And I tell you, ‘Don’t be afraid! I will help you.’ (‭Isaiah‬ ‭41‬:‭13‬ ERV)

11 I say this because I know the plans that I have for you.” This message is from the Lord. “I have good plans for you. I don’t plan to hurt you. I plan to give you hope and a good future. 12 Then you will call my name. You will come to me and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will search for me, and when you search for me with all your heart, you will find me. 14 I will let you find me.” This message is from the Lord. “And I will bring you back from your captivity. I forced you to leave this place. But I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have sent you,” says the Lord, “and I will bring you back to this place.” (‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29‬:‭11-14‬ ERV)

In the words of TaWanna Morgan, God is so DOPE❤️❤️

“So He Himself often withdrew into the wilderness and prayed.”

‭‭Luke‬ ‭5:16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬
Jesus knew how trying his life was and how heavy was the head that wore the crown.  👑 I don’t know what your crown is, could the heaviness you carry be your past? Could it be fear of your future? Could it be debt, addiction, fornication? Could your heavy load be your children, thier progress, thier other parent? Could it be death, sickness, illness, disease or disabling condition? Could it be aging parents, dysfunctional family or absent parent? Whatever heaviness you carry can be lifted.

Find time to steal away, seek the kingdom of God and all its righteousness. Take 10 minutes to steal away, cast your cares on God and enter into his presence. Let the healing power of the Holy Spirit be released in your life. Welcome the Holy Spirit into your quiet time and let him prove himself strong and mighty. Release your cares unto God and know that he has made provision for you. He had already healed you, forgiven you and released you.

“Then He said to His disciples, “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; nor about the body, what you will put on. Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing. Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap, which have neither storehouse nor barn; and God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds? And which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? If you then are not able to do the least, why are you anxious for the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. If then God so clothes the grass, which today is in the field and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will He clothe you, O you of little faith? “And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind. For all these things the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knows that you need these things. But seek the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you.”‭‭Luke‬ ‭12:22-31‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Fight like a girl: A mothers point of view

Please read below as Angela Bowman share how she fought like a girl with her beautiful angel Amauri… 🎀🎀
Hello, my name is Angela Bowman and in July of 2010 my daughter Amauri Jones was diagnosed with Large B-Cell Lymphoma. It took a while for us to realize that Amauri was sick because she was such a vibrant little girl. If it was not for the fact that Amauri’s belly was the size of a little basketball, we would have never known that she was sick with Cancer. She received her treatment at the Children Hospital at the University of Michigan-Ann Arbor.

​This came as a total shock for my family and I. We had dealt with a family member battling cancer, but not a child, so this was very devastating for us. Amauri was only 3 at the time of her diagnosis, so all she had an understanding of was that she was sick, doctors were going to make her better, but she had to lose her hair in the process. She was a very brave little girl, because she was okay with that as long as her hair was going to grow back. I knew from that moment that I had no choice but to be as strong and brave as she was.
​It was going to take about 6 months for Amauri to fight her battle, but there was hope that at the end, she would be cancer free. As I watched my daughter go through her treatments, it became a little easier to cope with because she was so strong to be so small and battling something so big. Even though we were in the hospital for six months, she did everything any other 3 year old would do. She made friends, did a lot of art and crafts, and she also meet a lot of important people from the University of Michigan. Amauri was so full of life during this time, I had no choice but to be as strong as her, and at the end of her treatment, we were excited to know that she had won her battle.
​Amauri was cancer free for about a year, in April of 2012, she was diagnosed with Leukemia during a routine checkup. This again took me for a total shock because she showed no symptoms, her 5th birthday was 4 days away, and during her doctor appointment I was offered a position at Chrysler through email. I was more upset this time because Amauri was doing so good and our lives seemed to be going so much better. When I had to break the news to Amauri that we weren’t going back home for a while, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Because she was in school, making friends, and had just been through so much, but my baby girl handled it like a Champ!
​This treatment was a little different from the first round. After three months of treatment, the Leukemia was in remission but Amauri had to have a Bone Marrow transplant in order to make sure the cancer did not continue to return. In July she was blessed with a match Bone Marrow donor, and my family was super excited as none of us was a match. 
​ During all Amauri treatments you would have never known that she was battling cancer or even had just went through a transplant. Amauri’s body rejected the first transplant, so her donor donated again for her in September, but before her body could accept the marrow, she came down with pneumonia. My happy, sassy, full of life baby, now just slept 21 hours of the day. As bad as I hurt watching my baby fight and not be able to help her was the hardest thing as a parent I ever had to do.
On October 13, 2012, Amauri l won the ultimate victory over Cancer. I prayed for her healing and God said “don’t worry I’ll take over from here.” This was the hardest day of not only my life, but our whole family lives as well. We knew Amauri had fought a great fight and was now in a better place. As little as she was, she impacted so many lives, and her memory will forever live on. Amauri most definitely “Fought like a Girl!”