Down, But Not Out

Down on the mat, the referee is counting down the number of minutes you have to be down there before you are considered knocked out. You hear him calling out the numbers, you’re down there because you have been hit so hard you could no longer stand on your feet. Sweat is beading on your forehead and pooling under your armpits. Your heart is beating fast and you can’t concentrate on any one thing. You keep asking yourself in hyper speed how did this happen? Did I let my gaurd down? Was my chin unprotected? Was this a body shot? How did I get here? 

The seconds creep by and the number count is nearing that number that says you have been TKO’d, technically knocked out. Your spirit is shouting to God, HOW DID I GET HERE? And then the spirit of God reminds you who YOU ARE!

“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:37‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?”‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:30-31‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Your troubles may have you on the ropes, you may even hit the mat, but count it all joy. You may be down, but you are not out.
“I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.”‭‭Psalm‬ ‭37:25‬‭NIV

“This righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭3:22-24‬ ‭NIV‬‬

So get up, pick your head up. Shake off the punches being thrown at you. Plant your feet about shoulder width apart, bend your knees, slightly, just enough to settle yourself in your position. Put your dukes back up, but don’t throw a punch, just stand there. Jesus himself said this:

“But make up your mind not to worry beforehand how you will defend yourselves. For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict. You will be betrayed even by parents, brothers and sisters, relatives and friends, and they will put some of you to death. Everyone will hate you because of me. But not a hair of your head will perish. Stand firm, and you will win life.”‭‭Luke‬ ‭21:14-19‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Now that’s good news🙌🏽


I didn’t see this coming

“I will continue to trust God even if he kills me. But I will defend myself to his face.”‭‭Job‬ ‭13:15‬ ‭ERV‬‬

I find myself saying this day after day. It’s as if I took Job’s place. When your family is under attack it is very easy to lay back and suffer. It’s easier to complain and ask why me Lord, why me. My family is being attacked on many sides. I’ve been blindsided by the things I am faced with and I find myself lost in my situation. This is one of the most difficult tests of my life. I’ve been lied on, cheated on, beaten, molested and destroyed, I’ve buried a daughter, my mother, and several friends but this right here, I never saw it coming. The devil is tricky and he keeps thinking he has won. There are a few skirmishes that he wins but the battle belongs to God. As soon as I got to my bible, these scriptures flowed out..

“““But those who trust in the Lord will be blessed. They know that the Lord will do what he says.”‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭17:7‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Satan answered the Lord, “But Sheveze has a good reason to respect you. You always protect her, her family, and everything she has. You have blessed her and made her successful in everything she does.She is so wealthy that her herds and flocks are all over the country. But if you were to destroy everything she has, I promise you that she would curse you to your face.””‭‭Job‬ ‭1:9-11‬ ‭ERV‬‬ changed to prove a point. 
And then I am reminded:

“When I was born into this world, I was naked and had nothing. When I die and leave this world, I will be naked and have nothing. The Lord gives, and the Lord takes away. Praise the name of the Lord!””‭‭Job‬ ‭1:21‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Like Job I believe:

“Job answered, “You sound like one of those fools on the street corner! How can we accept all the good things that God gives us and not accept the problems?” So even after all that happened to Job, he did not sin. He did not accuse God of doing anything wrong.”‭‭Job‬ ‭2:10‬ ‭ERV‬‬

“Sheveze, you have taught many people. You encouraged those who were ready to quit. Your words helped those who were ready to fall. You gave strength to those who could not stand by themselves. But now trouble comes to you, and you are discouraged. Trouble hits you, and you are upset. You worship God. You trust him. You are a good woman, so let that be your hope.”‭‭Job‬ ‭4:3-6‬ ‭ERV‬‬ changed to prove a point.

I am reminded in my spirit  
“Why am I so sad? Why am I so upset? I tell myself, “Wait for God’s help! You will again have a chance to praise him, your God, the one who will save you.””‭‭Psalms‬ ‭43:5‬‭ERV‬‬

“Your help made me so happy. Give me that joy again. Make my spirit strong and ready to obey you.”‭‭Psalms‬ ‭51:12‬ ‭ERV‬‬

““Before I made you in your mother’s womb, I knew you. Before you were born, I chose you for a special work. I chose you to be a prophet to the nations.””‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭1:5‬ ‭ERV‬‬
“So what should we say about this? If God is for us, no one can stand against us. And God is with us. He even let his own Son suffer for us. God gave his Son for all of us. So now with Jesus, God will surely give us all things. Who can accuse the people God has chosen? No one! God is the one who makes them right. Who can say that God’s people are guilty? No one! Christ Jesus died for us, but that is not all. He was also raised from death. And now he is at God’s right side, speaking to him for us. Can anything separate us from Christ’s love? Can trouble or problems or persecution separate us from his love? If we have no food or clothes or face danger or even death, will that separate us from his love?”‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:31-35‬ ‭ERV‬‬
““But those who trust in the Lord will be blessed. They know that the Lord will do what he says.”‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭17:7‬‭ERV‬‬

So no matter how you are slayed by your problems; remember that God is with you and you are undefeated in God. 

For your glory…

For your glory… 
We sing this song all the time… ” for your glory I will do ANYTHING..” We be crying and all in!! But what happens when it’s time to do that anything?!? 

Like when your kids start acting crazy. But you gotta do “anything” so that people can have hope for their children.. 
What about when your supervisor is disrespectful and God need you to do “anything” because somebody need to see the correct way to respond when someone is being disrespectful to you. Are you still willing to do anything?

What about when your marriage is failing and you want out. But God need you to do “anything” so that people can see marriages can last. That two people can function and operate together!! 
How about when your health it failing. And you don’t even want to get out the bed. But God need you to do “anything” so that someone, even if it’s one person. Can see that if you made it through, they can make it too!!! Are you still willing to do anything? 
See it’s easy to sing the song. But when it’s time for action it’s totally different. It’s easy to cheer and pray for your friends and family when they are going through. 
Yeah girl, keep the faith…. Praise him, keep your head up… No worries!!! You know the stuff we say. 

I can honestly say when it’s time to do that “anything” it may not always be pretty. You may feel as though you can’t make it through!! But I promise you will. 
I’ve been going through my “anything” since April. Yeah April!!! 

I never understood the scripture “be anxious for nothing”(philippians 4:6) until anxiety and panic attacks took over my life. 

I mean barely able to function!!! Getting up in the morning was the hardest thing in life!! I would be nauseous, dizzy and everything else. But I got up and I went to work, suffered for 8 hours. Came home and still had to function for my children and husband. The best part of my day was sleep!!! I still went to church and still kept a smile on my face. Even though every second I wanted to cry!! 

No pity parties for me though. Im just here to share my testimony with someone that said the same thing I did. God, I will do anything!!! So I’m doing. Keeping my Faith on high and knowing that this too shall pass!!!
Love you!!! 


Tiara 👑 Tuesday

You should not be surprised when you walk in a room and people stop and stare…you came dressed to be stared at right? When you walk in a room and people can’t seem to look anywhere else, that’s your presence commanding your mind and bask in it…expect it. If you enter a room an no one cares, ask yourself what went wrong?  Your personality should be so forceful that people feel the pull of your presence on them, it should ripple along thier skin making it impossible for them to ignore you.  When you enter a room it can’t be just the people who are changed, the atmosphere should literally be forced to stop and acknowledge who you are…you’re a princess baby girl… What can I say? Prince Charles has the same problem, it killed Princess Di…
If you looked at me and judged me to be “something”, I release US from that and I challenge you to speak to me, try and spend 5 minutes talking to me and not about me and find out who I am. My presence can be overwhelming and I won’t apologize for that, it’s who I am, but I love people and I’ll love you too if you give me chance.