Do it scared

If you know me you know that I am a firm believer in moving forward despite what your situation looks like. Despite the voices in your head and in spite of the fear in your ❤️ heart!
Do it anyway. Do what you want to do and what you need to do. The same spirit that raised Jesus from death is in you. That same spirit can raise you above any situation you find yourself in. That same spirit can overcome your fear and and trepidation. That same spirit says YES even when your body says no. That same spirit says YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, when you feel ugly. That same spirit says I GOT YOU when you are afraid. 

“God raised Jesus from death. And if God’s Spirit lives in you, he will also give life to your bodies that die. Yes, God is the one who raised Christ from death, and he will raise you to life through his Spirit living in you.” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:11‬ ‭ERV‬‬

God promised you many things, it’s in the book and I tell you these promises brings Life to any dead thing.

“This God is our God forever and ever. He will lead us from now to the end of time!” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭48:14‬ ‭ERV‬‬. 

“The Spirit that we received is not a spirit that makes us slaves again and causes us to fear. The Spirit that we have makes us God’s chosen children. And with that Spirit we cry out, “ Abba, Father.”” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:15‬ ‭ERV‬‬


“The Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” 2 Corinthians‬ ‭3:17‬ ‭ERV‬‬.               



“As one piece of iron sharpens another, so friends keep each other sharp.”‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭27:17‬ ‭ERV‬‬

“Be friends with those who are wise, and you will become wise. Choose fools to be your friends, and you will have trouble.” ‭Proverbs‬ ‭13:20‬ ‭ERV‬‬.  

The one thing I love about real friendship is there are no time barriers, no schedules and no explanations. 

I have friends that I don’t talk to daily or even weekly. I have friends that I only talk to situationally. I have friends who I know will drop everything and see about me and they know I will do the same. I have friends that pray for me and friends I pray for. 

The one common denominator in all these friendships is forgiveness. I need my friends to forgive me when I forget to call. I need my friends to forgive me when I call and I’m distracted. I need my friends to forgive me when I let them down. On the flip side I forgive my friends easily. I don’t hold grudges and I assume good intent. 

“Don’t be angry with each other, but forgive each other. If you feel someone has wronged you, forgive them. Forgive others because the Lord forgave you.” Colossians‬ ‭3:13‬ ‭ERV‬‬

We tend to be hard on our friends. We expect them to drop everything when we need them, forgetting that they have problems too, they have families and concerns and everything in between. Our friends can’t solve our problems and we need to stop expecting them to have answers that you don’t have.

Love your friends on purpose, spend valuable time with them. Let them know you love them, let them know you may not be able to solve those problems but you are available to listen. Expect nothing from your friends but love. My friends are the best, they cheer me on, they encourage me, they let me be me. I pray that I provide them the same thing.

“You should owe nothing to anyone, except that you will always owe love to each other. The person who loves others has done all that the law commands.” Romans‬ ‭13:8‬ ‭ERV‬‬

About a boy

Today we went out in the city of Flint to do outreach, we were laughing and having a great time with everyone who dropped by for pizza and prayer. A carload of young men pulled up, tatted and looking pretty rough. One appeared to be a white boy, one was clearly mixed and one appeared to have a Spanish heritage and white or black but clearly mixed. They pulled up in a van and Michael asked them if they wanted something to eat and offered them prayer. The one young man of mixed heritage said yes I need prayer. The men surrounded the car but he preceded to get out because he wanted to hold hands. They prayed for him and I walked over and he gave me a hug. It was so sweet. 
I had heard him mention his dad had passed away so I offered my condolences, he proceeded to tell me a story. 

“He said his dad passed away when he was a young man, he told me his mom is black but his dad was white. He said he did not remember his dad but he was strongly affected by his absence. He said he wants to do right and every day he asks God to forgive him for what he did wrong and the things he is going to do wrong because he has to live”.

I was moved by his sweet spirit and his tough outer exterior. I saw the sweet boy trapped inside the young man who needed to do any and everything to survive. He kept hugging me and telling me he loved me. I wanted to cry but I could tell that my tears was not what he needed. I put on my brave face and offered him whatever help I could. I told him that if he found himself in a situation and needed help, to call Michael. I gave him Michaels business card and another hug. 

Meanwhile the kid from the front seat began to educate us on the bloods and the crips, yes the gangs. He explained the crips set the stage for WIC and community outreach. He then explained he was a loced out crip LOC, and did whatever was necessary to survive. We spent about 30 minutes talking and making sure they ate. The driver was saying his LOC meant Love of Christ because he had a family now and he was trying to get the others to grow up too. I guess he forgot he had told me he had not been home in 3 days because they were getting money. But hey, I can’t judge him. 

At the end of the 30 minutes one of the young men told me he would see me at church in the morning! He even gave me his phone number so I can call and remind him.

There were many people who stopped by today but those three boys reminded me that life is happening right here in Flint. Gangs are still active and they still have to make life altering choices each and every day to survive. 

As much as those boys think we helped them, I know for a fact that they helped me. They reminded me of what my life could have been. I was once a young person who did not always make good choices and I thank God he put enough people in my life to show me there was more to life than what I saw every day. 

I say all this to to ask you to pray for these kids and all kids who have to make choices that we as adults are never faced with. 

“We should think about each other to see how we can encourage each other to show love and do good works.”‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭10:24‬ ‭ERV‬‬

When God answers your prayer! But not how you thought.

Man, I was so mad  the other day I told God on a few people. Then I prayed and was asking him if he could provide clarity for me, show me if I was operating in the spirit of discernment or was the devil attacking me.  I needed help, this was really bothering me!

“Free me from my troubles. Help me solve my problems.”‭‭Psalms‬ ‭25:17‬ ‭ERV‬‬

Y’all know our Heavenly Father is much like our own loving earthly father? He listens to us, provides for us and often laughs at our expense. That is just what God did to me, he laughed. I was thinking I was right in my thinking and then this;

“The Scriptures say, ‘I don’t want animal sacrifices; I want you to show kindness to people.’ You don’t really know what that means. If you understood it, you would not judge those who have done nothing wrong.”‭‭Matthew‬ ‭12:7‬ ‭ERV‬‬.              

A gentle reminder that I was acting like the people I was mad at. They may get to the point differently , they may never get the same thing I did from a scripture but I don’t know what God is doing in their life, I don’t know 🤷🏽‍♀️ the plan, I only know my part.

“I decided to study and to use my wisdom to learn about everything that is done in this life. I learned that it is a very hard thing that God has given us to do.”‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭1:13‬ ‭ERV‬‬

“If something is crooked, you cannot say it is straight. And if something is missing, you cannot say it is there.”‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭1:15‬ ‭ERV‬‬

“Keep on telling everyone these truths. And warn them before God not to argue about words. Such arguments don’t help anyone, and they ruin those who listen to them. Do your best to be the kind of person God will accept, and give yourself to him. Be a worker who has no reason to be ashamed of his work, one who applies the true teaching in the right way.”‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭2:14-15‬ ‭ERV‬‬                        

And that my friend is the answer to my fervent prayer. 

Remarks for Beverly Jean Nelson
As I looked at the best way to remark on my cousin who I called Aunt, I looked for examples of women in the Bible to define her. 
I looked to Ruth, I looked at what she had been through and how her story ended, she had Boaz but she was not quite who I was looking for.
I looked to Naomi and thought oh no, my aunt was not in misery, she did not feel that God had dealt with her harshly. Aunt Jean trusted God till the end. 
I looked to Sara and although Sara had an amazing encounter with God, she was not the example I was looking for. 
I turned to Noah’s wife, she had to have great faith right? She helped build an ark ,and supported her husband and sons. No, she was not who I was looking for.
I looked at lots wife and the widow woman who ran out of oil, I even looked at my favorite woman the Shunamite woman who looked at her trouble and declared all is well. 

But It was not until I found Ester that I knew I had found the woman I was looking for. Esther was beautiful, she was loved, she had much favor and she was smart. When trouble came to her door she didn’t faint oh no, she went to God for help. I knew this was the woman who best represented my aunt. 

Aunt Jeannie was physically beautiful but if that’s all you remember your missing the point. She was a wife, mother, sister, aunt, cousin and grandmother, she was a friend, and a confidant but she was also grace, class, sophistication and joy. In spite of her struggles she still trusted God, for she was a woman of great faith. So those are the things I will remember. 

So I challenge each one of us today to remember the lesson from Ester. If trouble comes to your family, don’t run and hide because you were called for a time like this, gather together, fast and pray and then go to the king. Remember the words of Mordecai.

“If you keep quiet now, help and freedom for the Jews will come from another place. But you and your father’s family will all die. And who knows, maybe you have been chosen to be the queen for such a time as this.” Then Esther sent this answer to Mordecai: “Mordecai, go and get all the Jews in Susa together, and fast for me. Don’t eat or drink for three days and nights. I and my women servants will fast too. After we fast, I will go to the king. I know it is against the law to go to the king if he didn’t call me, but I will do it anyway. If I die, I die.””‭‭Esther‬ ‭4:14-16‬ ‭ERV‬‬