Marriage part 2

Honesty, purity and sacrifice

As you struggle in your marriage I challenge you to remain sexual pure. I don’t mean virginal but I mean you should only give your body to your husband. I know you’re mad or your needs aren’t being met or maybe you are separated physically and emotionally. Whatever the reason you choose it’s an excuse to do what you want. Keep yourself pure not because Jesus won’t forgive your but because one day you will have to forgive yourself. I know you think you will be able to shrug this off later because you have your reasons. But let me keep it real for you, if you love yourself and you love God your conscious will not let this rest and you have just given the enemy a way to torment you. He will taunt you and remind you how you failed God and he will be relentless. Let me help you save yourself the trouble.

It’s not easy but I challenge you to take this time to heal yourself, heal the reasons why you think this is acceptable knowing you are married or in a committed relationship. Ask God to show you YOU! I beg of you to let God heal you, it will be rough, you will have to remember things so deep and dark that you think you will break but my sister, I tell you to trust God with it. He got you.. let your Faith go to work and do he heavy lifting.

“He said to her, “Dear woman, you are made well because you believed. Go in peace. You will not suffer anymore.””

‭‭Mark‬ ‭5:34‬ ‭ERV‬‬

My sister I know that marriage is hard, I know that people let you down and break your heart, I know that and God does too, that is why he tells you that he will never leave you, he knows what’s coming. But remember, all things work to the good for those who love God and who are called according to his purpose. Yes that’s you, if you were born, you have a purpose. Even this thing you are dealing with know has a purpose. Ask God to help you understand, but be ready to work. I can promise you he will help but I can’t promise what it will look like. Just know that in the end, you will be better.

“Now, about sex and marriage: Drink only the water that comes from your own well,”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭5:15‬ ‭ERV‬‬


Marriage part 1

“Also, teach the older women to live the way those who serve the Lord should live. They should not go around saying bad things about others or be in the habit of drinking too much. They should teach what is good. By doing this they will teach the younger women to love their husbands and children. They will teach them to be wise and pure, to take care of their homes, to be kind, and to be willing to serve their husbands. Then no one will be able to criticize the teaching God gave us.

You should be an example for them in every way by the good things you do. When you teach, be honest and serious.”

‭‭Titus‬ ‭2:3-5, 7‬ ‭ERV‬‬,7.erv

Ahhhh, the struggle is real. I have read this and highlighted it and reread it, but live it? I am probably considered an elder by some, especially those new to marriage but I don’t feel like it. I’ve been with my husband 37 years and I by no means an expert on marriage or relationships but I am aware of them.

My heart has been grabbed lately by marriage woes.. my inbox, my text messages, social media and just life itself. I’ve been touched enough to reach out.

I only have one thing to say today, Trust God! Trust the God who created heaven and earth, the God who loved you enough to send his son so you could be free. Trust him with your heart, your soul and your marriage.

“And I pray that you and all God’s holy people will have the power to understand the greatness of Christ’s love—how wide, how long, how high, and how deep that love is. Christ’s love is greater than anyone can ever know, but I pray that you will be able to know that love. Then you can be filled with everything God has for you. With God’s power working in us, he can do much, much more than anything we can ask or think of.”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭3:18-20‬ ‭ERV‬‬

A personal story

Good morning my loves. As open as I can be it’s always a struggle to share something personal and ongoing. Recently I had a mammogram and they called me back for some extra pictures. Well, that has happened before so I did not panic. My husband offered to go with me, I said this is nothing, they will take some pics and let me know later. Well I was wrong wrong wrong. After the pictures were taken the nurse told me to have a seat because the doctor needed to review the pics and if he could rule out Cancer I would be free to go. Well wait a minute, what are you talking about? That’s what I was thinking but my voice was quiet. A little piece of my soul was hanging on whispering “peace be still “ but my spirit man was screaming in my chest WHAT IS SHE TALKING ABOUT? I just stared at her and said, ok.

She left with pictures of my left breast tucked under her arm. I sat there and the first thought I had was “I don’t have time for this”. I didn’t know if I should scream and cry or just sit quietly. My spirit child kept whispering “peace be still”, “All is Well”, trust the process. I was numb and it was taking forever. But God always has a ram in the bush. A lady from my church who I’ve always considered a friend was there getting an exam and when she finished I asked her to sit with me. She didn’t ask any questions she just sat there and talked to me. God sent her at that exact time, just for me.

The nurse came back to the room and asked me to follow her. We went into a room with a huge table with a hole in the middle, X-ray machines and other items I had never seen. She told me the doctor was unable to rule out cancer and I needed a biopsy of my left breast. I had no words! I sat there numbly as she explained the procedure and what was required of me. I was panicking inside and it seemed as if my voice was screaming in my throat and burning it inside but nothing could come out. After she scheduled my appointment I headed to the lobby and told my friend I had to have a biopsy. She offered to be there with me every step of the way, I was numb. I got dressed and headed to my car.

I have to pause here and tell you that on the way to my appointment I had my smooth r&b playlist bumping in the car from my phone. Normally when I get back in the car it picks up where it left off right.. naaaah God had something else planned. I jumped in the car and immediately the song “Bigger” began to play.. I fell apart right there in the parking lot at how great my God is! He wanted me to know he was bigger than what I was going through. All I could think was “How did this song begin to play?” But then I though about God and him saying nothing is impossible! Yeah he kept me as I dealt with my fears.

Well to shorten the story, everything came back negative and I do not have Breast Cancer🙌🏽 The experience reminded me how quickly your life can change. It reminded me to be careful of my relationships and to cherish the people who cherish me and to love on purpose. To be purposeful about my actions and my reactions. I did not give any of my friends and loved ones the opportunity to support me through this because I did not know if I should burden them with this. But know I realize I could have used the emotional support.

A prayer for us

I have prayed to God in heaven and asked in Jesus name that today be blessed, that all of us have an ear to hear and a heart of compassion for one another. I’ve prayed that we remain calm and respectful of each other. I’ve asked the Holy Spirit to Invade the space and bring us peace. I’ve asked God to help us solve our problems so we can all be successful and have a feeling of fulfillment. I’ve asked God to remove any preconceived ideas about any person and to give us a heart for peace. I’ve asked God to forgive us, restore us and renew a right spirit in us. “The Lord enjoys people who worship him and trust in his faithful love.”

“The name of the Lord is like a strong tower. Those who do what is right can run to him for protection.” So I’m asking that his loving protection be granted to you and to me.

‭I’ve asked all of this in the name of Jesus, so according to my faith, it is done!

Only you

You taught me to love you. You taught me passion and purpose and joy and laughter . I smiled

You taught me to hate you. You taught me despair, loneliness, loathing and regret. I cried

You taught me forgiveness and how to be unforgiving. Yours lips taught my ears to lie, your tongue taught my heart to die, I cried

My God taught me how to live, his love taught me how to love. His power gave me strength to leave but his love gave me courage to stay. I smiled

Only in our relationship could I flourish and only

by our love could I be saved.

I did it Scared

Today my “Do it Scared” attitude let me down. I’ve been in Europe for over a week meandering along winding roads, taking harrowing bus and taxi rides, bravely doing it “Scared”.

Today as we docked at the beautiful picturesque Santorini Greece, sitting in the middle of the Mediterranean Sea surrounded by the Aegean Sea on one side and the Ionian Sea on the other I lost it. This island is Unimaginably breathtaking with beautiful homes built into the side of the mountain with awe inspiring vistas and it scared me beyond belief.

As I researched the island I saw the winding roads and thought, hmm I’m afraid of heights, how is this going to work? As we travelled to island after island I was able to talk myself through my scariest moments and was doing fine. Last night as I read through the ship information it provided me with information that was vital. The first information it provided was the time to disembark and that we would be using tenders..-umm I truly don’t like tenders and all the previous ports provided direct port walk offs, but no problem I can handle a tender.. yes I can. The second set of information they provided gave me pause, it mentioned that there were three ways to get up the mountain to the town, walk up 588 steps, I did not mis type the word there were 588 steps. You could ride a donkey up the 588 steps and if you walked up you were in the path of donkey poo or you could take a cable Car up the mountain that is 1,000 feet above sea level.. ummmm, I was very concerned but i put on my big girl panties and pasted a smile on my face, then I reminded myself I could just “Do it Scared”. I came too far to back out so I planned to be successful, I sat with my back to the view and watched the mountain, it took 2 minutes and all was good. Soon after we got to the top I was brave enough to take pictures and truly enjoy the majestic views and the awesomeness of my God. I knew Only God could have created the scenes I saw.

We began our private tour to an ancient site that is currently being excavated, it was good, the ride up was concerning but I did it. I closed my eyes when I got overwhelmed and I confirmed that I had to “Do it Scared”. Next stop we went to a winery with a view that almost stole my breathe away, it was amazing. Ok, pat myself on the back, I did that with little to no panic.. I’m good right? Wrong, on the way to a town called Aio we were admiring the view and I saw the road ahead was winding with no edges, sheer drop offs and crazy drivers.. I lost it. I laid down in that van and cried like a baby. I had reached my limit. I had been brave as long as I could but that scene wrecked me. Then I got mad at myself for giving in to the fear and I cried even harder because I was disappointed.

On the ride back to town Michael sat with me and I laid my head in his lap and he talked to me until we passed the scary parts. He didn’t make a big deal out of it he just sat there with me until I could gather myself. Unfortunately I’ve been weepy since i got back to the ship, it’s like the tears were so glad to get out that they keep coming. Tomorrow is a new day and I’ll “Do it Scared” at the next island.

I’ll be God’s hands and feet

I was laughing with my cousin today about the kids thinking Bishop Knox was God. Adults find it strange when kids confuse the pastor for God but the more I think about it, the more I realize they may have it right. Not saying I think any pastor is God but shouldn’t his actions on earth be a reflection of the God he serves?

There is a song by William Murphy that says the change I want to see, must first begin in me. Well most Pastors have gone through a transition that changes the heart they were born with.

But should it only be pastors, ministers, teachers or Bishops or should it be everyone who has accepted Christ?

Casey J has a song called my heart..she says

I’ll be your heart to the ones I meet

I’ll show love to the least of these

I would have never known if u didn’t first love me

I’ve learned to love when I’m your hands and feet

I’ve learned to love Ill be your hands and feet

So to all my ministers and friends, we are created in his image and his likeness, let’s allow the world see him in us!