When U Pray

So they quarreled with Moses and said, “Give us water to drink.” Moses replied, “Why do you quarrel with me? Why do you put the Lord to the test?” (‭Exodus‬ ‭17‬:‭2‬ NIV)

I think I was around 19 or 20. I was dating this drug dealer. We lived together and was doing alright(so I thought) money was great, got anything I wanted etc. Until one night we came home and some people kicked our door in. I fell to the floor and a guy came and snatched me up by my hair and put a gun to my head that was taller than me. The guy that loved me and wanted to marry me ran out and left me with his problems. So now I’m alone with 4/5 men with guns asking me where all the drugs and money at. And in my heart I knew they came to kill because they didn’t have anything over their faces. I was so numb but through it all I had a sense of peace. It’s like God was telling me I got you covered.

Now I didn’t have any relationship with God at that time. I went to church because I felt like I had too. I was living my life doing my own thing. I honestly felt like I had time to get around to that church stuff. I thought church people were boring and didn’t have fun. Let me tell you, I was all wrong!!! Church people (most of them) are fun to be around and they know how to have fun just like anybody else.

I don’t know who this message is for but it has been haunting me. I vowed to never speak on that day again because it was HORRIBLE and talking about it is almost like reliving it. But please know that God will protect you no matter where you are in life. He has no stipulations on his love for you!! Yes we are sinful, yes we are broken at times, yes we do things we know we shouldn’t, but guess what?! God is always waiting on us with open arms. So to whoever that may be reading this I don’t care what your situation look like. God loves you and he will rebuild you. Take all your cares to him and allow him to work on you. Today!!!! We always think we have tomorrow but we may not!!! So today!! ❤️