So I broke my first promise( hangs head in shame). I said no shopping for 6 months and then boom I bought clothes. I felt so shame I almost took them back as if that would change the fact that I broke a promise. I didn’t fast and give it up for God, I gave it up for my financial well being but I did ask God to help me in my finances so basically I fell down. The world would have me believe that I have sinned and God no longer loves me. Well thank God I have a bible that tells me different.
I was considering should I tell everyone that I messed up? That I fell short? That I couldn’t do it? Should I admit that I have a problem? The enemy was in my ear saying, no one will know! Why bother saying anything they can’t fix it! What would you gain by admitting you shopped? Who even cares?
I was thinking it’s not a big deal and then I remembered it’s not a big deal yet, but if I sneak and hide and try to cover it up the devil will beat me with it forever and constantly remind me that I am not worthy of God’s loving kindness. I was reminded that sneaking and hiding is what cost us Eden and yes I messes up but I’m not going to compound it by lying. If I make excuses for myself now I will continue to do wrong and make excuses forever and give the devil power of me that he does not deserve. So I am saying I messed up, I did something I said I wouldn’t. I didn’t sin, I didn’t commit some unforgivable act but I didn’t do what I said I would do. I have to forgive myself, ask God to continue working on me and keep it moving.
If you have not kept every promise to yourself, forgive yourself and let’s get started from here.
“But if we confess our sins, God will forgive us. We can trust God to do this. He always does what is right. He will make us clean from all the wrong things we have done.”
1 John 1:9 ERV
Then I pray this for you and me:
“I pray that the God who gives hope will fill you with much joy and peace as you trust in him. Then you will have more and more hope, and it will flow out of you by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
Romans 15:13 ERV