Raise your hand 🙋🏽♀️ if you have had some days when you just hung your head and thought “How can I keep doing this?” Do you ever just get frustrated and try to figure out “where is God in this?” Do you keep trying to figure it out and coming up short?
Yeah me too
I have watched my area become devastated by Covid 19. One week our community lost 7 pastors😩 , I was like Goooooood where are you in this? I have days when I can’t even go on Facebook because 2-3 people are reporting having Covid, or have people who have gone on. But more importantly I watched my own brother die during this time.. rough! Then I’m screaming in my own head Goooooooood where are you?
I wake up and pray to God, thanking him for another day and by noon I’m frustrated and ready to cry. I’m all over the place some days between happy, grateful, sad, angry and frustrated but then the spirit rises up in me and I am reminded how I already survived so much. I survived the death of my daughter, my mom and my dad, my grandparents as well as a different brother along with various aunts uncles and cousins. Death has been ever present in my life just as life has and when I forget that God is still in control the Holy Spirit reminds me. So when I don’t how what to pray or how to get relief I go to a quiet place and wait on the Holy Spirit… yeah I am reminded that if you put the word in there… it comes out just when you need it.
I may not always understand how this works out for my favor but I do know who controls the future, and in that I will have hope.
“Also, the Spirit helps us. We are very weak, but the Spirit helps us with our weakness. We don’t know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit himself speaks to God for us. He begs God for us, speaking to him with feelings too deep for words. God already knows our deepest thoughts. And he understands what the Spirit is saying, because the Spirit speaks for his people in the way that agrees with what God wants. We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love him. These are the people God chose, because that was his plan.”
Romans 8:26-28 ERV