I woke up with my heart and soul singing, ohhh Lord I need you to help me, help me on my journey Lord help me on my way, oooo Lord I need you to help me.
“God, I praise you! Hear my prayer and do something!”
Psalms 109:1 ERV
Do you ever feel like that? Like things are out of your control and it’s uncomfortable? Days where your family dynamics are off and you don’t know why? Stupid arguments, constant misunderstandings, feeling inadequate in your role as a wife, a mother, a friend or caregiver?
It’s often assumed it’s when you are fighting the big battles that you really need to hear from God but I’m here to tell you that’s not the only time.
My prayer right now is for God to heal me, heal those places in me that makes me feel inadequate, heal those areas of my life where I become angry when people don’t meet my expectations. I’m trusting God to help me remember to seek him and not my friends when I need comforting because I get hurt when I call and they don’t answer or they blow me off with words like “you have faith, trust God” when I really just wanted someone to hear me, to empathize with my pain. I’m trusting God to heal the places in me that need people to be honest and fair, I need to love them as they are, no one should have to change for me to love them. I’m trusting God to heal the places in me that are still raw from past hurts and betrayals, I already survived that mess. One thing I know for sure is God hears me, yes he does and he hears you too.
“I am waiting for the Lord to help me. My soul waits for him. I trust what he says.”
Psalms 130:5 ERV
So I encourage you to seek the kingdom of God and he will give you what you need.
“Lord, your faithful love reaches to the sky. Your faithfulness is as high as the clouds. Your goodness is higher than the highest mountains. Your fairness is deeper than the deepest ocean. Lord, you protect people and animals. Nothing is more precious than your loving kindness. All people can find protection close to you. They get strength from all the good things in your house. You let them drink from your wonderful river. The fountain of life flows from you. Your light lets us see light. Continue to love those who really know you, and do good to those who are true to you.”
Psalms 36:5-10 ERV